Firsts

I have so many thoughts running though my head lately.   It has been a rough holiday.  My grandma past away very suddenly on December 14th.  She died of a heart attack at 87.  Christmas was no good but I got though it because of the girls.  I wanted them to have a wonderful Christmas and they did.  They were surely spoiled which they deserved to be.  I am glad that Christmas and New Year is over.  I am ready for this year to begin.

I am going to try many things this year.

I want to be a better mom.
I want to spend more time with my kids.
I am going to be back into shape.  That is not a New Year's Resolution - it is just something I need to do.  I was doing great until Thanksgiving and then I ate whatever i wanted and didnt work out.  I felt the weight pile on this weekend and that is going to change starting tomorrow.
I want to find a new career.  I hate my job and I hate that I cannot do something better with my life.  I cannot sit behind a desk for the rest of my life.  I will be 30 in less than 2 years and I need something to show for that professionaly. 

I am hoping that this year and this decade will be better for me and everyone out there.  It just needs to be.  The past year has not been good for most.

I am also hoping that maybe starting this blog will help me be a better person all around.  It will be good for me to get my thoughts out there.  Who know what this could lead to??!!??!?!?!??!?!?!?